Control

It's odd but I feel a deep tension in my being. I feel like something is about to happen but I have no idea what that might be.

The interesting contrast to this tension is the confidence in myself and my ability to see and understand those around me as well as seeing one step ahead in the general everyday sequence of events.

The feeling is like a churning mass of energy that is tightly contained within the vicinity of my heart at the moment but I feel it building. It will either result in the yin or yang of positive or negative. The general impression I'm getting is that it will be something I decide. Some choice is about to present itself and I have no idea what the result will be.

It's a sort of vigilant nervousness. The general inside of me feels controlled and the new blossoming confidence is calm, watching and deciding. But the child like energy growing in my core is about to burst out and I don't know if that in itself can be controlled.

My experience tells me that I need to have faith that it will be okay as long as I keep my head. But, I wish I knew what was causing this.

I'm quite sure this will make little sense to those around me and so I don't voice it and I wait.

We shall see what happens.