Connection

I spent my evening listening.

When I stopped speaking and shut off the mental dialogue while just honestly listening, was when I felt most connected to all of those around me.

I experienced people who were numb from emotional overload, escaping pain, enjoying the excitement of discovery, stable and also listening to others etc.

I was randomly hugged and caressed by those who wished to share contact and accepted it for what it was. A way to connect.

Later I went to a pro dommes' house with someone who was balanced and searching and another who was struggling with their disconnect. She (the domme) a woman of much life experience, was talking about what she found to be important in life. It brought the image of Harold and Maude to mind. The more I sat quietly and only made acknowledgment type sounds and a few anecdotes the more calm I became inside. I attempted non judgment about the disconnected individual and found bits of myself within him.

As the evening came to an appropriate end for me I left the house and walked quietly to my car. I slept well that evening and upon waking the next morning I still had that centered calm.

The experience was similar to a seven day retreat I attended where there was no communication and meditation for 8 hours a day. Towards the end of the week I found that everyone around me had been struggling as hard as I had been and I felt a deep connection with them without having to discuss it. They felt the same depth of connection with me and knew nothing about the particulars of myself.

I love the merit in listening and sharing in moments for those moments. And I appreciate the connection I feel with those around me. There is a particular draw that this maintained mind set has that draws others to me.

It's very pleasant.